I had a few minutes and thought I would update my blog since its been a while. I was dating this guy named Todd(Look at post below). We went on a date and things went really fast from there. It was going perfectly. Then one day things changed. I don't know why. So we decided to take a break. He told me he needed time to figure out if I was the one. (He brought up the "M" from the very start.) I think he might have freaked himself out. He said he didn't think he would need longer than a month. I told him to go date other girls and see if he felt different around them versus me. Two and a half weeks into the break he starts texting. He ends up at my house that night and we talk. But we didn't really decide on anything. After talking I go back into my house and I get the feeling that I just need to give him more time. The next day I decided I am going to tell him that we need to break up officially. I am going to tell him if one day he stops being confused and realizes that I am for him then he can come talk to me. But I am not guaranteeing that I will be around or even want him by that point. Boys are lame! This is probably for the best and I am learning alot. Thats what dating does to you. Dating teaches me what I do and don't want in a husband. I have also decided to try not to focus on dating. I decided to focus on my school, friends, and family. I also decided I am going to do one of two things after I graduate. 1. I am going to go and California and live with my Aunt and Uncle in San diego and work. 2. Go back east and nanny. I am very excited for this plan. I hope one of those things work out.
This past week has been very sad. My cute little cousin Emmalee passed away on October 1st. She had liver cancer. Yesterday was the viewing and today was the furneral. The viewing was very nice. The furneral was sad, bitter sweet. Emmalee was such an amazing girl. Example to all of us. I am missing her alot. Our family will miss her very much. I know that this was for the best because she was in pain and didn't feel good because of her cancer and it was god's will. I am grateful for the plan of salvation and knowledge about eternal families.
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It is so good being able to talk to you and see you all the time. Everything will work out in the Lord's way and in His time ;) No worries, he knows exactly how you are feeling and what blessings he has in store for you.
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